New Address

my new address is: well, i am thinking better of this idea. at first i was going to post my new address online, and then i thought that eric probably would not like that /bc then all sorts of random scary people could get the address and possibly come find me or something. and since it is the middle of the night (yes another night shift) i can't call him (although i called him last night at 1 am and he did answer bless him!) to ask if i can post the address i think i shall not post it. however, if you would like my new address by all means email me and i will email you back with it. it's a much better address than my previous address b/c it's not as long and there's no apartment blah blah blah. for those of you who have lived in an apartment, isn't it such a bummer to have to write out this long street address and then at the very end tack on something lame like, "apt #31"?. and on applications for things like grocery discount cards etc you always have to put apt #31 and then you feel like a weird-0 b/c you haven't bought a house and can't just write a street address. i feel like a much more accomplished member of society by being able to just write the street address and not have to show the world that yes, i sitll live in an apartment. the day that i own a house will be special indeed. that feels like it will be very far away though.

on sleeping during the day after night shifts: it's very hard and rather confusing to sleep during the day when you are used to sleeping at night. i usually do very random and strange things during the day. frequently i will sleep walk around the house/apartment (see above note on houses vs apartemtns :) ) and wake up half way through a stride realizing that i am very confused and can't figure out what i am doing. whatever i am doing however is always very passionate and fervent. like i have this feeling that it must be done. today for example, i woke up very confused thinking that i just absolutely had to change my shirt. i told you it was random. so i groped around on the floor (my eyes don't open very well during the day sleep) and found the shirt i had been wearing the day before that luckily i had left on the floor. i say 'luckily' b/c if it hadn't been there, you better believe i would have gotten up out of bed and tried to open my dresser drawers and figure out where a shirt was that i could wear. i am telling you i get very fixated on these things. one time eric found me trying to open my dresser drawer insisting on a Tshirt instead o the tank top i was wearing. and i just kept insisting so he tried to find one for me. and then i didn't want the gray one i wanted the navy blue one. so he had to find that. it's weird i'm telling you. i can't explain it at all except that my brain is very befuddled. so i was lucky that today i had a shirt right by thebed that i could just change into. b/c then my mind was satisfied and i could lay back down and sleep. i am also lucky that the shirt was beside the bed b/c right now eric is in arkansas and he wasn't around to put me back to bed and tell me that i am dreaming. he has to do that often too. i sit up in bed at night and think something is happening and start talking a lot and he has to lay me back down and tell me that i am dreaming. i only ever vaguely remember these occurences the next morning. eric usually tells me about them over breakfast though. i've never had such erratic sleep behaviors before i moved to utah. a lot of things changed when we moved to utah, and i thought it was the move. but i have decided that the real reason things have been so incredibly strange is working. eing in a hospital. working night shifts. new schedules. constnatly changing things. it just happened in accordance with the move to utah so i blame utah when really it's the hospital's fault. strange things like my stomach being more sensitive, having outrageous burps (which occurred after having horrible flu attacks last fall an di can't get rid of them! it's awful!) not being able to tell what i want to eat, getting low blood sugars b/c i didn't eat soon enough and couldn't decide what my body wanted to eat so i just didn't eat anything and then suddenly i go bonk and have to have something really quickly. but that is defnietly related to the hospital. b/c of the long hours and such. anyway, the strange sleep patterns started after the move too. part of that is probably geting used to sleeping with someone in the bed. but i've gotten over most of that. nwo i miss eric b/c he's not there (he's in arkansas like i said earlier).

so that's all the thoughts for this night shift. enjoy.